Yesterday's reading went well. The bank was packed: there were no chairs left to sit on, and that never happens at poetry readings. People were kind listeners, and responsive. But reading poems about central Maine while standing in bank on the Upper West Side just made me feel so bizarre, like I was performing in a freak show or something. The world of "Ugly Town" was so far away from these listeners. I felt, as I read, that rural poverty was weirdly one-dimensional to them . . . a vision of Tea Party Republicans and fundamentalist preachers and deer rifles and four-wheelers and smelt fishing and clear-cutting: a world of redneck paper dolls. But I live in that place. And they live in a place where Yoko Ono has an apartment around the corner.
Update: I just got an email from one of the other poets at last night's reading, who told me he was worried that his poems weren't dark enough and that people could tell his mouth was dry . . . at which point I started laughing and decided not to delete this silly post. It seems that poets come out of their holes just long enough to feel like idiots, and then dive in again. It's good for you to see us in all our glory.
5 comments:
I attended your reading and was very moved by "Ugly Town" because most of it met the high moral bar so many poets seem to have stopped reaching for: a transcendence beyond emotionally based observations of the self to broader communion with the human condition through descriptions of basic suffering and a focus on crucial fundamental needs. It is a shame to think you looked out at us and judged us the way you feared we were judging your subjects. You made us into paper dolls, too.
Oh, dear. I did not mean to imply anything other than my own anxiety. You are absolutely right.
No worries...and thanks for doing the reading--it was really a pleasure to hear you and to discover your work. I bought your book!
And thank you so much for that!
It is always so hard to know if the audience will receive the gift of our words in the spirit we offer them...
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