Because I have to work both a weekday and a weekend schedule, and because so much of my work happens from home, and because all of it involves reading and writing, I find it hard to figure out how to separate my private tasks (whatever they are) from my contractual ones. Revising a poem is unpaid and personal, but it directly affects my teaching and performance life. Digging in the garden and folding laundry and cooking a meal are household tasks that do not ostensibly involve writing, but they are the subject matter and rhythm of my days, and thus show up in my poems, and thus affect my teaching and performance . . . and you can see how this tangle perpetuates.
Not that I am complaining. I'm extremely fortunate to be juggling this life, but juggle is an operative word.
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When he was a young boy, my husband listened to his grandparents' carpenter recite from "The Rubáiyát of Omar Khayyám" while he worked (that book was one of my then boyfriend/now husband's first presents to me). We had a plumber who quoted Shakespeare while fixing our bathroom pipes. Then there was the night custodian who discussed philosophy while vacuuming the floor of my classroom.
Work and life and art --- how do you separate those intertwined strands?
You make a good point about how a fully integrated life is generative. Why unwind the tangle? The tangle IS life, right? But yes, the balance that our clock-driven days asks us to achieve can be confusing, and not at all orderly. Perhaps, though, it is the messiness that is the loam from which all good things come.
Nancy, what a beautiful story! And yes, Carlene, the tangle is life. I do pity those who have so compartmentalized their lives that little seeps through the seams.
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